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alright well i've been back for quite a few days now

and i've decided something

i dont think i'll be updating this thing anymore

i need to get a job, a car, driving lessons, and i need to save for another trip to NY cause i've discovered it kicks australia's ass and i wanna go again.
and i also wanna get some kickass expensive things that i def need a job to be able to afford.
ie musical keyboard and a hearse.
so i'll probably only come on here to post the occasional photo or two or rant if im really pissed off

i wish i had the time but i've discovered life gets hard when you're not in school anymore


sayonara!

tomorrow!!

it's actually tomorrow!!!!!!!!
yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
xD






uh i dunno what to say really. i'll try and update as much as i can while i'm away. pictures and stuff y'know.

ok so i'm completely better

started packing my suitcase today

it's not all going to fit :/

i really want a new layout.

not only do the inside of my ears hurt
but so does the outside of them
and all down the sides of my face
i can't even cry, it hurts too much
the fucking painkillers don't work anymore

i can't even open my mouth more than a fucking centimetre without all my jaw muscles tensing up and hurting

i just went and told mum that it's gotten worse
what does she do? doesnt reply and goes back to sleep


edit: oh fucking great
i go to my friends page and see a while bunch of pictures in aus_mcrmy, i just realised that my chem are in australia
nah that's fine, dont bother coming to perth or anything, its not like you've got any fans here...

i feel zero everything right now
zero tolerance
zero happiness
zero hope

at this point i dont even give a shit if i end up going to new york
i just feel like dying

alright, ear infection it is.

i feel so disgusting
because the doctor said i have 'lots of green pus' in my left ear
:(

if its not improving by tomorrow i have to go back to the doctors and maybe go into hospital for a few days
to have antibiotics... this will involve an iv drip in my arm
:(:( i really don't like the idea of that

and i also don't like the eardrops i have to put in
they make me feel completely deaf and i dont like being cut off like that

the whole left side of my face near my ear and jaw hurts to move so i can't really eat much


why the fuck did this have to happen 12 days before what is supposed to be a wonderful vacation?
if its not better, i can't go... i wouldn't be allowed to fly with an ear infection

i feel really weak and sensitive right now. and a bit cold

i think i have an ear infection.
all i know is that they really hurt
only 13 days until my holiday D:
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
massive infinite eep of doom.
literally.


i hope its not ear infection, and that it goes away soooooooon



on another note...
i watched the resident evil commentary last night.
i've never watched a commentary on a dvd before
damn it was hilarious!!
i mean, really. HOW FUNNY DO THEY WANNA BE?!
woo.

ok so i just got back from graduation
i felt so awesome when i changed my msn away message to "bbla, graduating high school."

im trying to eat mac and cheese while i type this XD i got mighty hungry

first of all, i looked like harry potter.
with my shirt, tie, vest and the grad robes. Potter was my name for the night haha

LOTS OF BORING SPEECHES. OH GOD NO.

then the music students performed a song. Come as you are by Nirvana.
lauren, chels and carissa sung it
and lauren dedicated it to me
she actually said 'this is dedicated to ashleigh'
i was like YESSS! *raises arms slightly*
several people around me chuckled and one said 'haha, well done!'

mr borchardt [best photography teacher EVER]
won this award and i was so glad he did, he does so much for everyone and was under a lot of stress from everything he had to do.. aw <3


then i got really nervous about going up on stage to collect my yearbook and certificate.
and i also had a really bad headache for some reason
when we recieved our stuff onstage, the dept. principal told a little blurb type thing about us

i cannot remember exactly what mine said but it involved 'and she would like to persue a career as a director or something in the funeral industry'
i swear everyone was just like :| what theeee @ me.
and as i walked down the steps on the side my the stage i played the Snape card and swished my robe as i turned the corner to come back to my seat
it. was. fun. XD XD XD

near the end of the ceremony, ms fleming, our year coordinator made a speech, and god damn i almost cried at the end of it
she said having us was the highlight of her teaching career and she was going to miss us heaps and stuff
when she finished the speech, in the second before the applause i said "AWWW!"


i love the fact that i now have a piece of paper telling me i've finished school forever.
yay!!


ohgod im so tired and i have a headache
i might update later.
i know i was in quite a few pictures so i may be able to obtain some
and i'll go see borchardt next wednesday about the ones he took hehe

i just got back from the graduation rehersal.
oh my god it was so boring.
i felt sorry for ms fleming when everybody wouldnt stop talking when she was trying to tell us stuff.

but before the rehearsal started, Chloe and I went to see mr borchardt in the photo-taking room. and he took my picture like 3 times to test the lighting out. haha yay
then chloe had to as well.
borchardt is so awesome

i lost my permission form, but apparantly thats okay :D
i've already forgotten where i'm supposed to sit. haha

when we were being informed of what was suitable to wear, we were told that girls should wear pants and a fancy top thing or a skirt or whatever
i just sat there thinking of my collared shirt and tie im gonna wear haha
wheeeeeeeeee

anywho, im really bored now so i cant be bothered typing anymore
maybe updated later on tonight when i get back from GRADUATIIIIIIING.

i got my hair cut. and i got some blonde and otherrandomcolour foils
OHGODYES.




i love it more than lots of stuff i love heaps
XD WHEEEEEEEEEEE ~~~~~~~~

TAINTED LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3
:D
end transmission.

MONORAIL CAT 4 PRESIDENT.

STEVEN K AMOS.




i can't find this other great vid of him at the melbourne comedy gala from this year or last year
it. was. hilarious.

i love the way he imitates people! especially australians XD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The more news and magazine articles I read about MCR makes me kind of pissed.
They're all changing so much :(
To be completely honest, I don't really like The Black Parade all that much. I just.... don't like listening to it.
Maybe this is because when I first discovered MCR, they helped me through hard times and I felt like I was finally home when I listened to them.
I listened to the whole Revenge album everyday before school, and when mum was yelling at me that it was time to go I tried to stall her so I could listen to the remaining 30 seconds of I Never Told You What I Do For A Living
Then I bought Bullets. I was insanely happy and listened to it over and over and over.
This band had really changed my life.

And then when The Black Parade came out, I was excited about the new material.
When I listened to it a few times, it was good. But how it made me feel will never compare to how Bullets & Revenge made me feel.

Also, something else I need to vent about...
The MCR boys all look so different now.
Recent;y I've been seeing pictures and I don't even recognise them :(

I want this MCR back:

As much as I love reading abby/kate slashfic, I get carried away and squee about their cuteness to myself for hours after reading.
[i swear i read about 30 fics today XD]
Then I get all sad because I don't have a kate/abby type person of my own :( blah
its like drugs, when im reading them, i'm really happy
and then when its over, i get really sad and i want more
what if one day, there IS no more :O
hmm lol


in other news, last night i stayed awake the whole night watching movies [finding nemo, hellboy :D]
 to make myself ready for normal sleepage hours. i should be asleep right now!!
at about 2pm i'd just finished reading the cutest abby/kate stories evarrrrr
and i was really REALLY tired
i had a mini nap on my desk with a cushion
then i wanted to "rest my eyes" or some shit like that where i pretend i dont intend on sleeping
needless to say next thing i know its 6pm and my phones ringing. apparantly mum tried to call heaps of times haha.
however, i think it's good that my dreams during that nap were filled with adorable abby/kate-ness

when i was opening like 28305 fics in tabs i tried to make sure i didnt ope any where kate is dead. those ones make me tres sad =[
but i ended up reading like 3 involving dead kate anywho. hmm

in conclusion. i want my own Abby to watch Finding Nemo with me and cuddle and stuff  :C
damn fictional characters. *shakes fist*

p.s. my lips fucking hurt =(

I just checked my countdown on myspace
1 month 2 weeks.
it's getting so close!!!!!
this is the first time it's seemed "just around the corner" sorta thing
ahhhhhhhhh

random:
when i went to NZ in year 7 I got strawberry icecream at the airport and i think when we're there in 1 month 2 weeks i'll get some again to commemorate my second ever overseas trip :]
and everytime i go to any airport, i have pretzels so i will also be having some of those :P haha
wheeeeeeeeee! *spins*

oh yeah, and the other day my phone
the white lg slidey one
BROKE
i went to text someone and it just froze and turned off and never turned back on XD
so im using mums old one atm
i think i'll keep it, i like it =D squee

does anyone have animal crossing: wild world for nintendo DS?
do you also have WiFi?
lets trade friend codes and other info and visit each other and junk ^_________^
doesn't matter if i know you or not, just as long as you're not some seedy person thats gonna mess up my town D: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blergh haha






yay comment this entryyyyyyyy!

Ok so LJ is being a complete ass and not loading.
So I write this entry in notepad to be submitted later on.

It really pisses me off how most people thing I'm interested in the dead because i'm one of those immature retards that're all like "Yeah im gonna steal a bazooka from the fbi and kill everyone and then poke their dead bodies with sticks yaaaaay death is cool and i want to kill everyone!"

I actually find death to be interesting and I have a serious interest in learning as much as I can about it. Just because someone's interests aren't "normal" doesn't mean you should treat them like a fucking idiot.

And if anyone has any problems in the future with things I like, I shall just hit them with my hearse =] Or a blunt object..

<3 me.


p.s. Today [well, really yesterday as it's 12:54am right now] Mum told me that someone I know from her work [hospital] died that morning.
She had cancer, everyone knew she was going to die but still, didn't mean I was prepared for it'
I just said "Thankyou." quietly to mum and walked off to my room and sat on my bed in darkness sort-of crying.